Hard Days

Sunday afternoon was going along in a very nice kind of a way

with a fun ladies meeting where we enjoyed tea

and a talk by my awesome mother.

This talk was about trusting God.

That He is trustworthy.

He is indeed.

It is a very good thing we know that.

For shortly after we finished our time together

with prayer for needs in our group

there was an urgent call.

Our dear friend, Amy, was in trouble.

Miscarrying.

I won't recount the details.

If you'd like to know more you can read

Deanna's blog post 

at Creekside Cottage.

We are so thankful that God spared Amy's life.

She is very precious and special to all of us.

We weep with their family for this loss.

Then yesterday I went for some tests on my heart.

Finally.

I started this process with one group and have 

had to change cardiology groups midstream.

Test number one went smoothly...

as far as I could tell.

Test number two....

not so much.

There were complications and 

I ended up needing 2 doses of nitroglycerin

and oxygen

to calm my heart back down.

I am left wondering what I will find out 

at my next appointment.

It seems that I'm not really going to like it.

But I'm praying that it isn't as bad as it seemed.

Perhaps they will simply add another med.

However, 

I am a bit apprehensive.

There is no doubt about it.

I passed it along as a prayer request to the ladies at church

and immediately received a call from one of them.

She reminded me of Mom's talk.

Honestly, I had not even thought of it.

But how perfect was that timing?

Not many hours later

I turned on the news to watch a killer tornado

roar through Moore, Oklahoma in real time.

It is no wonder my heart is heavy today.

I've seen that many of you are feeling the same way.

But the best news is this:

Our God is trustworthy.

He can be trusted...

in all.

Whether it is a bad medical test.

The tragic loss of a darling baby.

A son heading into the Army.

A daughter heading to the other side of the world.

A road trip to new places.

Or....

Any number of other things we may face,

We can worry....

For all the good that will do.

Or we can trust.

I'm going to try.

Really, I am.

How about you?