From the ages of approximately seven to ten I had an Ethel Barrett
story record that I listened to regularly.
Ethel Barrett was so good at telling stories.
You could imagine her face all scrunched up as she
made the story come alive...
or a huge smile as a lesson came to a happy conclusion.
One of the lessons I remember well was about a
monkey in a cage at a zoo.
This monkey was offered its freedom.
However there was a problem.
You see, the monkey had found an apple just outside the cage
and was holding onto it
While his hand went through the bars easily enough
without the apple it just would not fit
back through as long as that stubborn
primate kept the apple in his grasp.
The visual of this has stuck with me over the years.
Last weekend I realized that I have been just like
that monkey in at least one area of my life.
I LOVE making candles.
I truly enjoy everything about it.
I've put blinders on to how it effects the rest of
not that I don't know.
I just wanted IT more than I wanted to please them.
That was wrong.
One week ago Sunday, God did some surgery on my heart.
I truly felt the snipping as He pruned and poked
around in there.
He changed my heart.
I could finally say with all that is in me
that I want to please my husband more than I want to
I shared this with a friend one day as we walked.
She's a new friend so who knows what in the world she
was thinking as tears ran down my face.
However, I'm pretty sure she has kept this matter in prayer.
Not only did I share this with my friend,
but on that Sunday I wrote a letter to my darling
husband telling him that he comes first.
Not because it is the "right thing",
but because I just love him that much and don't
want to waste our time together working in
He is so unbelievable.
He didn't say...
"Great! Now you'll give it up."
Instead he was totally understanding and
supportive. I couldn't believe it.
Not only did I give up the apple
but I gained freedom.
Freedom from the underlying current of discontent.
Freedom from the guilt.
Freedom from resentments.
We have agreed that this candle season will be
the trial period to judge the ultimate potential for
Good Neighbors Candle Co.
Some time round about the New Year
we will, together, decide if this is something that will
continue or if I will become a hobby candle maker.
Man, does it feel great to be FREE.
So glad I let go.
Are you holding onto something that is
keeping you from having ultimate
happiness and peace?
Take it from this silly lady.
It's not worth it.