Friday, December 19, 2008
Matters of the Heart
It has come to my attention lately that my
children are deep in mourning over the
loss of their Grandfathers.
It is easy to think that they have moved
on, don't care, aren't bothered by it...
but then suddenly in the car the other day
Mikey began talking about his Grandfathers
and how much he misses them.
Last night Jonathan relayed his longing
for Grandpa, as something had triggered
I think this year is our most emotional one
yet, as there is no current health crisis,
or recent loss. Each year since 2005
there has been some horrible "thing" going
on over the Holiday period and we have been
distracted. This year we are all struggling
in our own ways.
I am so glad that the boys have finally opened
up about their pain. It makes some of their
behaviors and attitudes easier to understand.
At our Wednesday evening dinner at Georgia's
this week the subject turned to grief. It was
so good to talk about where we are now. This is
not something that just "times out".
It changes, shifts, and works its way deeper
into your heart and soul.
Our family is not unlike so many out there that are
processing thoughts of loneliness, sadness and sometimes
anger at this time of the year.
But we are talking about it.
I do hope that if you are struggling today,
you will find someone to talk with.
Share your feelings.
Ask someone to pray with and for you as you
sometimes walk in the valley.
Then get up, dust yourself off, and find someone
that you can minister to.
That is the antidote.
Prayer and giving.
My heart goes out to all who are processing
loss this Christmas Season, whether that loss
is "fresh" or "freshly come to mind".
You are in my prayers.