C-H-A-N-G-E

Why is it that things that
are so good for us can be
so very difficult?

If we are blessed to find
a life partner and marry
there is a period of adjustment.
I remember very early in our marriage
I was struggling one evening because
Warren was late for dinner,
having worked late.
I called my parents, they said
they were not getting involved.
I was a married woman and I
was to take my issues up with
my husband. Very wise and sound
advice. We worked through those
changes and I love Warren more
today than I thought I did then.


We feel it when we have
children. A huge blessing
that brings with it such
varied emotions.
Maybe that is just the
sleep deprivation...but
I also remember the knowledge
that this was a lifetime
commitment.
A very good change.
Forces one to grow up...
fast!

There is the change that comes
with a move to a new area.
We have done that more than once.
Sometimes with excitement,
other times with a bit of
resentment.
I would say this move to Lancaster
was a bit rough for me...but God
knew what He was doing and it has
been GOOD!

And the reason I am writing this
particular post...Change in our
fellowship and worship.
The life of the church.
For nearly ten years
we have attended a very tiny church.
It was not our intention.
We had been a part of a small church and
I saw our move as a way to find a larger
church to get lost in. But, this was not
to be. We ended up in a church even smaller
than the one we had enjoyed back in Centre
County, PA.

Over the past eight of those ten years I have
known my role in this church. It was pretty
clear that if certain things were to get done
they would be my responsibility. Others worked
and had other duties that they were faithful to
in our church body.

But over the past year, God has blessed our
tiny church with growth and new friends.
I do, indeed, treasure them.
And I don't just have to say that because
they read this blog.
I love them dearly.
But, with the growth, inevitably comes change.
No longer can I possibly continue to do the
things I was accustomed to doing.
Hosting weekly get togethers, providing all
of the food for those events.
Working with Pastor Mike on all of the music
and each special event.
That really just scratches the surface.
It was a joy!!
It really was the second most important "job"
I had other than educating my children.

But, as others have come in we have been very
excited to see them step up and offer to help
in this way or that. Their homes have often
been opened up to the Fellowship. I am very
grateful for all of this...but still...it is
change.
One I have been at war with.

This week, God used some very special people
in my life to break down some walls.
Walls of resistance.
They have been a huge source of peace and
joy to me in pointing out that even as
things are changing new opportunities are
just around the corner.
Now, that gets my attention!
I love new opportunities!!!

So...I write today to say...
I am so sorry, God, for resisting
those wonderful things You have
for me. I simply want to serve You
and Love You in whatever way it is
You want me.

To my Friends who may have felt the
distance lately, I am so sorry.
It is not about you.
It is about God needing to do some
pruning in my life.

I don't want to be that "old lady"
in the church who refuses to embrace
new and different. This is what we
have prayed for and sought for all these
years.

Funny, isn't it?
God answers our prayers and I
respond with a big tantrum.

Oyyyy!!!

Glad He is faithful and doesn't
give up on us.

Here is hoping for another ten
years in His service.
Wonder what HE is up to next???

Humbly,